God Taught Lessons.

"So pray for her and love her, but don't keep apologizing for what's not true." L said this to me a few weeks ago while I was dealing with some hard emotions and people that came with them. Great advice that I really wanted to share with people and this is how I decided to do that. Guilt and conviction can sometimes be one and the same if they don't come from the Holy Spirit and that makes confrontation and frustration hard to deal with.

One question I had was, 'how do I know it's not true?' My mind tells me that P doesn't always speak truth and I am a better person then P is telling me I am... but that doesn't always penetrate my soul. Through this, I have realized I am slightly dualistic because I say the mind can sometimes grasp concepts better then the soul. How does one get on with life and allow false emotions and hurtful comments slide? Does this mean I don't fully trust my Savior? No. Job had hardships too.

I care about people. I care about their feelings and emotions. Another lesson I think God is teaching me is that even when I care about people that doesn't always mean giving in to them because they're crying or hurt. Rather, to stand firm on my Fathers side, go to people I trust, and honestly ask about the situation. Hearing reality can hurt. Jesus needs to break us before some real work can progress and that takes tears and frustration... I had some of that crap with Ni.
One thought I had today in my Chapel was while I was praying the words, "help P and R to apologize and that You work in them," they might be praying the same thing about me... While I was getting distracted with those thoughts, the words from the worship song played. It said, "With everything." Simple and to the point. The earlier verse was explaining how we need to worship God fully and in every situation.

A key section of scripture I was reading today came from Isaiah 45:18+19 specifically 19b: "I, the LORD, speak the truth; I declare what is right." God is truth. When we go to the scripture, we find truth. Sometimes hard truth, but still truth.

Love people and remember that you yourself is a person. One whom God loves. This, I tell myself as well...