I'm Home.

Spring Break is upon me and being back home is such a blessing but at the same time quite weird. I arrived back in Cali late/early at night/morning to sleep three hours only to up a tad disoriented in my brothers house and a trip up the mountain. We went snowmobiling that day with G1, J, and Ch. The five of us worked hard at play and enjoyed being in God's wonderful creation. (photos are still on my camera... there are some good ones) I then came home and had family dinner with everyone except C, N, and Jack.
A good nights sleep followed with a full day with Lauren driving to Fresno but what we were going to see was closed so we watched the Hunger Games , then went to La Mornita for dinner, concluded with a game of Janga and half of Kung Fo Panda II.
Today was a good day. I went to church and lunch; a nap was enjoyed but it was a little long for my liking. At 5:20 I went for a walk and took some more photos of God's beautiful creation called home and laid with Henry in the grass for a bit.
This short message was more about what I did but I need to try and keep this up better... I'm heading to Russia this summer and that'll be quite the adventure!
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So many thoughts....
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Here's a good song... At least it's been in my head for a long time.
For me, this song is an escape from school and city. It's my history and a desire for the future.
I'm so confused about what my future will hold. I know that God has a plan for me but it is soo hard not to take that into my own hands. I'm home. But this can't be my home for forever. My soul is in a tug of war. If I stay too long then I get restless but if I am gone I miss home. I see my future with a husband in the country with animals and God's love. BUT. I also see my life in Russia, with Children (orphanage?) , teaching, no husband, and God's love. I will always be a home bred, country girl, who loves the Lord, family, and land; who works well with children, animals, and adults, fails at making everyone happy but tries anyway, is tough and stubborn but with a heart the size of Russia and then some. Well... At least that's my hope and prayer.