Sitting here in Starbucks... Listening to the random music that they have... Reminiscing over the last two semesters (mainly the last one). It's rainy and beautiful outside as Colorado gives us all a proper goodbye with her weather. The days of cleaning, studying, and stressing are over, along with the freedom of being in a different state -- now called home.
Out of the original 6, three have survived. Mel, Kat, and I look at each other and stand amazed at what God has brought us through. Dorie and Lucy have been blessings and the five of us have loved and worked together as well as disagreed. Alyssa has been picked up along the way: laughing, crying, and loving. The six of us have grown close and through it all God has taught each of us some hard lessons. He has shaped and formed us so that we can be closer to the person He wants us to be.
Trust in God. That simple thought, action, breath can be so hard. All of us have had to work on this aspect of faith this year to where it brings us to lean more heavily on our Father than we have in the past. For me it has been with J and healing from the semester as well as breaking up with B so I can be my own person. I need to figure out who God wants me to be and how I can still be that person when I'm by myself as well as with someone else.
He has also been working on Grace. Grace to others, grace to myself, and grace to situations. I love helping people with whatever they are doing especially for my friends or strangers (I guess that's everybody lol.) but the last few days it has been hard to accept it (and give grace) when people do not help me in return. I fight satan off when I feel like that but it is only by the grace of God that I can love people in that situation. Typically, it isn't a problem but every now-and- then, those thoughts creep up: I was a friend to you when you were in need... where are you now? Grace to myself has also been a lesson these 32 weeks. When I mess up or feel like I mess up, God keeps bringing in the fact that I need to love myself because He first loved me. It's a fact.
Well. That has been part of my year. California calls to girl in Colorado and so I go.
To quote Lucy, "Be all that you can be and love doing it."
Out of the original 6, three have survived. Mel, Kat, and I look at each other and stand amazed at what God has brought us through. Dorie and Lucy have been blessings and the five of us have loved and worked together as well as disagreed. Alyssa has been picked up along the way: laughing, crying, and loving. The six of us have grown close and through it all God has taught each of us some hard lessons. He has shaped and formed us so that we can be closer to the person He wants us to be.
Trust in God. That simple thought, action, breath can be so hard. All of us have had to work on this aspect of faith this year to where it brings us to lean more heavily on our Father than we have in the past. For me it has been with J and healing from the semester as well as breaking up with B so I can be my own person. I need to figure out who God wants me to be and how I can still be that person when I'm by myself as well as with someone else.
He has also been working on Grace. Grace to others, grace to myself, and grace to situations. I love helping people with whatever they are doing especially for my friends or strangers (I guess that's everybody lol.) but the last few days it has been hard to accept it (and give grace) when people do not help me in return. I fight satan off when I feel like that but it is only by the grace of God that I can love people in that situation. Typically, it isn't a problem but every now-and- then, those thoughts creep up: I was a friend to you when you were in need... where are you now? Grace to myself has also been a lesson these 32 weeks. When I mess up or feel like I mess up, God keeps bringing in the fact that I need to love myself because He first loved me. It's a fact.
Well. That has been part of my year. California calls to girl in Colorado and so I go.
To quote Lucy, "Be all that you can be and love doing it."
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